Not one of my better nights

Tonight is not one of my better night........can't sleep, just can't get the brain to turn off tonight and the meds aren't kicking in. Also having the leg spasms/cramps I get some days with this restless leg syndrome. I know some of it is standing in one place for so long today when the cats and the dog met......was afraid to sit down till knew all was well with them all. Took some Ibuprofen and we will see if that helps any.

I had had a TV given to me that was a large TV but some one had pulled the thing you hook the cable to in the back out. I was able to hook my DVD player to it but just decided it was going to cost too much to fix it, so gave it to a friend of ours named Bobby. Bobby is Skitzophrenic and dosen't do a whole lot but he does like to play games on his machine so this way he can have a bigger picture for it. He was really happy about the whole thing and I was just glad to get something that was really too big for me to handle out of here. Maybe one of these days I'll be able to get me a different one. For now I have 2 smaller TV's and honestly, even with these new boxes can't get much of anything in on these antennas.

I've had a rough day today anyway as I can't stop thinking how miserable my best friend is and how I can't be there to put my arms around him and hold him. I've read some writings he has been doing on his other blog and the ones that seem so dark just make me cry cause I can't kiss it and make it better.I want him to be happy or as happy as one can be in the time in the world. If I thought walking away completely and never seeing him again would do this I would do it in a heart beat! But I know how he was before we got together and I don't see him being better off if I was to leave. Time will tell how things will come out I guess.