Life stinks some days

Having a rough day yesterday and today. My best friend is hurting and there is nothing at all I can do about it. On days like this the human part of me cries out and asks God if He is really there. I'm so tired of hurting physically and emotionally. (By the way yes I know that God is real and is there and has a plan for all of this.)

Last year I had a problem and felt I needed to take an action that was right for my survival, later I dropped the action and thought it was all over. However, the state decided they needed to pursue it and even though we had made the arrangements that was needed and things were going great......it now has but up a major problem and my best friend can't have any contact with me which is tearing me apart. We were separate for our 4th anniversary and now I have missed fathers day and yesterday was his birthday.

Well, I'm back and on a funny note as I was typing there was a terrible crash in the kitchen, have been having trouble with kittens going through the window between dinning room area and kitchen and getting on the cabinets. Well, Smokey may not be doing that for awhile but then you know kittens are always curious. Wish I could have gotten a pic of Smokey with the watering can stuck on his head but felt it was more important to get him free so he didn't get hurt or nothing got broken. The can was about half full so you can imagine the mess on the floor and the cat!The pics at the top are after I used a towel on him as he was dripping and I didn't want him to get on the computer either.

On top of everything I have no idea how my best friend is physically......I get an idea how he is mentally by reading his blog and his posts on ASBO . I know he isn't real strong when under the stress he is under currently but there isn't a thing I can do to help out. For awhile I knew he wasn't blaming me for what happened but not so sure of that anymore and that hurts a lot. I did what I had to to survive and then I tried to undo it and did......we were getting along so well after he got his own place to live and then we could be together as we needed to be. Life was getting better and then the state stepped in and messed it all up for us!! I'm angry, I'm frustrated, I'm hurting and so is he and there isn't a damn thing I can do about any of it!!

My buddies and ME

Are these the same little ones who use fit under my chin to sleep? Now I can barely hold them at the same time.

Another Kidney infection?

Well another 10 days of the antibiotic Bactrim. Had to make a quick visit to the dr office and have me checked out. Somewhere along the way I have had the aches all over, a fever, headache and etc...... The test didn't definetly say I had another kidney infection but the symptoms were heading that diection, the dr did say there was an infection some where and my urine test said something was going on but didn't definetly say kidney or uti either.

Thank goodness my neighbor Elaine was up early on Friday and was able to get me there on time. The pain was on my right side this time but in the same area as last time. I also had a fever of 101 by the time I got to the dr.

So the babies and I spent all day Friday and most of the day Sat. Sleeping to keep the pain down and hopefully get better. So tonight they are like tornados going thru my house.....will have to clean house again tomorrow or Monday depending how I feel.

The days have been long

The days have been long without my best friend around. I miss the contact with him right now. I have to just take one day at a time and hope it all works out for the good.

I had to buy the kittens Iams this time and had enough of the Science Diet to mix in with what I got......I can get the Iams at the grocery store where I can't get out to get the other stuff every time I need it. I think the coats on the kittens is shinier and I think maybe they aren't scratching as much. I think they had dry skin from the air conditioner is what was happening. They don't care just so they get food right now!!hehehe

Several weeks back Mighty Mo had taken the little "cat toy" off of the plastic stick it was on and now he carries it all over the place, anytime ya hear a small bell ringing.....no another angel dosen't get it's wings......but usually Might Mo will show up with this toy to play. He has been bringing it up on the bed to me to play and that wouldn't be so bad except why does it have to be 3 in the AM he wants to play?? Oh well, at least the car racing track has stopped for now at that time of the morning....of course if I get tired of playing the game I just toss it thru my bedroom door for them to chase and there are enough other toys out there that usually they get busy doing something else and I can go back to sleep. I love my kitties!!

Guess things around the building here are changing some. Someone called the home office and filled them in on the problems around here and some changes have been made. One of the things that changed today was that our grounds person, who was also the managers husband, was apparently turned in as being an illegal from England, so he was fired today. Oh dear!! There goes my computer guy from the building also. He is a very nice person and will hate to see something happen to him.

Long walk

I took a long walk yesterday, Friday, and did real well all through the walk. Even stopped by to see my friend Mildred and check on her. However, coming down the hill from up town to my building I began to hurt all over, thought for awhile it was just going to be my new hip but it began to spread all over my body. When I got in the building I stopped down in the commons room and tried to watch tv and rest a bit. Two of my friends came in and we talked for awhile but I just kept getting worse. I finally got up and headed upstairs with the idea of taking a warm shower and then laying down but that idea was changed as I had to take some strong pain meds and lay down to be able to get on top of it all.

It wasn't the flu but was flu like symptoms so decided it must have been Fibromyalgia hitting me hard. I even chilled and ran a low grade fever, will need to watch this close in case there is still an infection some where, don't need it to settle in the new hip area!! It even has my carpal tunnel acting up, it hurt from my elbow clear into the palm of my hands and a few choice fingers. Both kittens seemed to know something was wrong and stayed by my side most of the evening.

Again today had a lot of the same things happening. Did go downstairs for awhile watched the end of the ST Louis game and then found the college baseball world series games at Omaha....when I left that LSU was ahead. Still feeling bad and the cats are about to tare me apart as they are in jumping stage and they are leaving marks all over me......of course that hurts more today cause I feel so bad anyway!! Grrrr

Fighting depression a lot lately doesn't help either!! That was the reason for the walk in the first place. Oh well, life shall go on and so shall I......or not and my favorite quote for that is......"heaven? Go ahead and threaten me with Heaven!"

Lightning Bug

Last night the kittens discovered a lightning bug in the room. I had so much fun watching them as they kept trying to find it after it would fly away. Lightning bugs have a smell to them so the kittens wouldn't bite it but they did try to catch it several times but as soon as they got their nose close they would sneeze!!

The 2 pics with Smokey looking down off the bed was when the poor bug was knocked to the floor and disappeared......Smokey found it once because of the light it put off but then it was gone. My favorite is of Might Mo looking down on top of the lamp as he had seen the bug up in the light several times during the evening.

This all happened after midnight so you know the babies were very wild for the next hour or so. They finally did settle around 2AM or so and we finally got to sleep. But they were back at the crazies around 6AM and I just nestled down in the blankets and let them do their race track routine all over the bed till one of them came and began to purr and tried to snuggle. Wasn't long till the other one was up to snuggle too ......then I slept till almost 10AM, then got up and got busy.

I love these guys and they have been a life saviour for me. There certainly is a lot going on with them around.

Happy Anniversary

Today is our 4th anniversary for marriage and our 2nd anniversary for moving here to Boonville.
I love you Scott!

This is the same kitten, right?

This is the same kitten, right?

Junior Got Lost - The Adventures of Junior the Giraffe

Junior looking for the way home

Went into University of Missouri Hospital's Emergency Room Friday night with intense abdominal pain. Turned out to have kidney infection - which wasn't found on trip to Cooper County Memorial Hospital ER the night before.

Scott decided that this time we're going to MU. Ambulance took me while he gathered up some things, including Junior, who's been my comfort through my surgeries.

When we left ER around 7PM Scott was so tired and I was tired and we forgot all about Junior even though he'd been my pillow!

Today I had an appointment in Columbia with hip replacement doctor so after that we went by MU ER and there Junior was!
He's home!

I'm sorry Lord Vader, the blue one proves difficult to turn.

I'm sorry Lord Vader, the blue one proves difficult to turn.

The Dark Side is stealing your thoughts

The Dark Side is stealing your thoughts

Beware the Dark Side which lurks behind you

Beware the Dark Side which lurks behind you

Some days you get it from both ends.

Some days you get it from both ends.

Going to the auction

Mighty Mo says "Hey, gotta tell my bro, Smokey Joe, about this."

Smokey Joe says, "Yep, Mo, we oughtta go!"

Stephanie Plum work here?

Is this Stephanie Plum's place of employment?
Wonder which truck "Goes Boom" in next chapter?

Well, it is the day before my birthday and things are going okay for now. Got a card from my daughter last week when she sent her dads out she sent mine too. She knew she would forget if she didn't. I got a card from my parents yesterday and will add a little bit to what they sent me $ and buy me a new swimming suit for this year. Of course it all will wait till next week when I get paid.

I am kitty sitting this weekend or at least till Tuesday. These guys just got their eyes open on Thursday and have already won my heart and Scott's too. If I had the camera over here I'd take a pic of them but Scott has the camera over there right now. One little black one which I am calling Might Moe.....now this can be for Mighty Mouth cause it is the loudest or for Mighty Motor cause his motor runs nearly the whole time it is nursing on the bottle. The other 2 are grey and one has a bit more lighter grey around its face and I have been calling it Smokey Jo. The other has just been being called Baby for now, it is the most content during feeding time....but the hardest to get the bottle away from when it is time to quit. The other 2 pretty much quit on their own but the last one has to be told it is time to stop. Yes, I am enjoying myself doing this.

I've also learned a new name for an art thing I use to do all the time and just thought it was junk but now I see it as ZENTANGLE. Want to know more about it look here
http://www.zentangle.com/about-what-is--1.php
You never know you might be an artist and didn't even know it! It is a lot like doodling or as is pointed out in some of the material I have read about it it is also a form of meditation. I use to do things like this all the time but was told all I was doing was wasting paper......NO I was making ART.

Grumman the Wonder Cat

Just had to share this pic of Grumman the Wonder Cat......he is so funny to watch. You wouldn't believe by watching him play that back before Thanksgiving he was rescued from being an almost roadkill cat. He was in such bad shape, 2 or 3 breaks in his pelvic area, a break in his tail close to the pelvic and since then we have decided he has had a break in the tip of his tail. Also he had major nerve damage to his left leg where he was dragging it behind him......well as you can see in these pics he is now getting that leg up under him very nicely now. He also is beginning to put weight on that leg when he is moving around. You can definitely tell however, when he is tired as the leg get more lazy about pulling up under him.....there are times when Scott has to refuse to play games with him when he is like that.

Grumman has gotten where he will come up to Scott and hunch his back and act like he is going to come at him the turn around and run, it seems to be his way of trying to get Scott to play chase with him. Another thing Grumman does is when you are playing with something you are pulling and he is chasing, he has a habit of going in front of the object where he thinks it will come out at......he loves waiting for things to come out the other side. We now have several "tubes", like toilet paper tubes and paper towel tubes and even a gift wrap tube that you put a small ball on the edge of them and he will literally knock the ball trying to get it to the other end. We have pics of him with his leg up to the body in the tube......he also loves looking down the tubes to see you at the other end.

The other night when Grumman was here I went into my bedroom to put up my laundry and he came to the door and talked at me like he was asking permission to come in so I told him "sure come on in". Then he went over to the bed and again like he was asking permission to get up on the bed....."sure you can get up there", so he jumped up and then came the fun part. He walked over to the pillow I use between my knees when I sleep and tried to put his head under it.......ah I thought I know what he wants. So I took a couple more pillows and made him a bridge and sure enough he dove under it. Then I went to the other side and peaked in the small tunnel and he jumped out at me. You see that is a game he and Scott play all the time of "where is the kitty" and then you look under where ever he is and he jumps out at you.....even though we know he has no front claws you can't help but jump back some when he does it......but he looks so proud of himself when it happens. Later Scott came in and played with us so even the comforter got into the act as Grumman figured out how to burrow under it so only his nose or an eye could be seen.

He is Grumman, our Wonder Cat......thank you to those who saved him from being road kill and becoming an important part of the family.

Grrrr

Well it is no wonder everyone keeps getting sick........one day it is in the 30's and then like yesterday we had the windows open. In fact I left them open all night and looks like it will be another good day weather wise. Go Figure!

I'm a bit frustrated today as I feel like I need a means of transportation of my own. I have needed to go a couple of places recently and have had to wait till Scott feels like getting out to get there......I'm sure it is part of my control issues.......wait did I really write that about control issues? I have been wanting a vehicle of my own for some time now but just don't have the bucks to get one just yet. I do feel like God has a plan for it all but you know how it is when things just seem like they are standing still and not moving at all..... Think I will get outside here in a bit and see if that doesn't help.

sitting in the "MIDDLE" of Missouri

ya know it has been really funny so far this week, and yes I know that this is just Tuesday........but here we sit in the "MIDDLE" of Missouri and yesterday while we were out we saw all kinds of chunks of packed snow in parking lots. It didn't come from Boonville......I know Aunt Judy said they got some snow in Smithton and the guy at the new local hobby shop lives in Arrow Rock and he said they got inches of snow. However, here in Boonville, I looked out and said oh it is snowing cause I saw the snow on the roof tops and then I looked out again and said......it's quit and still only a scuff on the roof tops.....and that was gone by night time.
Not complaining because we didn't get any but just think it funny how it went clear around us here. My daughter offered to package some up and send it to me from Omaha but that's okay........this gal is ready for SPRING!! Got CABIN FEVER setting in bad some days. I had it so bad the other day I walked down the way a bit and got a candy bar at In and OUT, the local convenient store over by the Casino.......then got caught in a small rain shower and had to sit over there to wait out the rain. No big deal only lasted half hour and the walked back to our building and felt good for having been out.....it was in the 60's that day.

Earlier that week Scott and I had been over to the Ft. Kemper Park, which is the grounds where Kemper Military School was, and he flew some kits while I just sat and soaked up the sun. I'm ready for good weather and some picnics..........was thinking would love to see our family......I mean the whole BIG family get together some time soon for an old fashion "GRANPA COEN" get together. I sure miss not seeing the family and I am sure there will be those that I won't even recognise any more!!

Well, time to get dressed and do something today......not sure what yet, maybe I'll go work on the train layout in the other room.

Monday!!!

Well the title should say it all, but for us it was also laundry day so I am BEAT!
We stopped by so Scott could take his laundry up to his place and he brought his cat with him to take to my house. We have so much fun messing with this poor cats head as we have all kinds of sounds coming thru the one good speaker I have on my computer. Tonight it was frog sounds from the Missouri Conservation sight of frogs from Missouri http://mdc.mo.gov/nathis/herpetol/frog/id.htm this is such a cool site not only can you see the frogs and what the look like, you can listen and if you wish download thier sounds. It is a wonder I have a speaker left when Grumman finally found the speaker where it was coming from!! I'll have to add some of the pics we took later of him trying to catch the arrow on the cursor also......so funny, Grumman would even run around and try to see the arrow in the back when we could get it off far enough from the front of the monitor.

Scott and Grumman have gone home now and I need to take meds so I can come down and get some sleep tonight. I just wasn't sleepy last night so it was almost light outside before I fell asleep. Can't let that happen very often or it just throws everything off.

I am very happy with the way my hip is healing. A little tender tonight but look for the Dr to tell me to get off the cane when I see him on the 17th of this month.
Good night all!!