Happy July 4th

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Hope everyone has a safe and Happy 4th!!

Life

Some days it seems that the things around me are trying to push me in another direction and as a Christian I know that some of those are of God and some are of the devil who is always trying to bring me down. How to know which is which some days can get me down and when those days kick in I try to use this reasoning......if it is of God it will not go against what I have learned in the scriptures, otherwise I then have to believe it is of satan.

The key to this is being in the scriptures(I need to be there more) and talking to God on a regular bases. I have also added to this by listening to my Christian music more and being open to God talking to me through the words. You can't base your life on what other people who call themselves christians as many are not in the place where they need to be either, it has to be a one on one with the Lord on and hourly bases if that is what is needed. Some days it is a minute by minute time with the Lord and I have had a lot more of those lately......and yes I have doubted God and his word more times then I'd like to admit. But the one thing I always know is that God is there waiting for me to turn back to Him and His love and tender mercies.

Getting ready for the 4th!!

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Busy week this week.....

Well, the last 2 days have been long and busy but have gotten eveything set up so I can have surgery on my right foot come next Tuesday, July 7th. I will go tomorrow on the local bus to go get my laundry done and caught up and then hopefully I will be able to go to the store and Walmart on the 6th and have that all taken care of also. I have a couple of friends that will kick in and help me with that if one or the other can't.

Todays Dr appointment was a good one. I am soon to be 2 yrs out on the gastric by pass surgery. Had a positive visit and then they are now having a "reminder class" for those who have had the surgery. Reminding us of what we need to do to maintain the weight loss and so forth. I saw a guy today that I had seen at the clinic before he had his surgery, never knew how much he weighted till today......he weighted 468 lbs a year ago yesterday when he had his surgery and he in down on the 270's some where today......He looked fantastic!! AND he is going back to work this Monday and getting off of disability!! He works a prison and is looking forward to getting back to work and keeping busy again. I think the class did do me some good and I am greatful for them having this. Next year on July7th I will have me 3 yr check up and hopefully I will see that he has lostthe rest of the weight and I will have lost some more also.

As we went over the Missouri River on the I-70 bridge yesterday and today a dredging boat was busy so took a pic of that from the OATS bus window. I tried to get some pics of all the white egrets but they are on the other side of the road and when we came back, couldn't find but 1 or 2 and they were far enough away couldn't get a good shot.

Had the windows open all night and all morning, just shut them and turned on the air about half hour ago.....it was 82 in the apartment so decided it was getting time to turn it on.

I had a bit of a break thru today for me anyway. My best friends lawyer did contact me and let me know finally what was going on and I in return agreed to take something he is sending me to a notary and sign it and send it back to have in the records. I want to help stop this all from happening in anyway I can. So sad the way things happens when you think something has been taken care of and then the state can come in behind your back and push action. Don't they have enough to do already?

My sister sent me an email today asking about stoping by on their way thru to see the folks. I'm glad they are coming by and I will get to see them. If I had a vehichele I could go there but since I don't I will at least get to see them this way.

I also talked to my mom for a few minutes today filling her in on things here and again assuring her I will be okay cause God is in control of all of this including me and the things I need to do. It is hard on her with me being so far away and them not being able to make the trip here but God has assured me He will take care of it all in His time and in His place.

Today

While resting and cooling off thought I'd add to my blog. I finally was able to get in a walk today, the wind is stirring and the breeze felt good. It was a long walk but I took my time and went slowly, however I will pay for it tonight and probably tomorrow.

Have needed to go to the store and had put out fellers letting people know if they were going and didn't mind a rider I'd like to hear from them but that didn't work. Soooo when you are out of bread, milk and almost to the end of the cat food you do what ever you can. I am glad I waited till today and didn't go out in the unreal humidity of this last week.

Again this year I missed out on Heritage Days here in Boonville, because of the heat. One of these days I would love to go and see the booths and things going on up town during these fun days.

Today as I left on my walk I heard the ambulances coming this way and as I rounded the building I saw why.......a young boy lay on the ground in front of a car here at the corner of our building, his bike just under the bumper of the car at the stop sign. My heart went out to all involved, he couldn't have been more than 8 or 9 yrs old.He was awake and showing the guys where it hurt so I crossed the road and prayed for them all as I went on.

As I went to the store I went through the residential streets and stopped by to see my friend Mildred. She was doing pretty good now, especially now that her air conditioner was fixed. She had had some pretty miserable days during last week when the humidity was so high but the landlord got the thing fixed on Friday and it was nice feeling in there today.

Storms

Well......we just had one dozy of a storm take it's time going thru. Lots of lightning and rain, some hail but it knocked out our lights this time for almost 2 hours......will have to go thru tomorrow and reset clocks, have 2 battery clocks so I'll be okay till then.

Meds are kicking in so off to bed for now.
Night all.

Well as you can see Mighty Mo has discovered the whirling water in the toilet when it is flushed. Then the next thing is that the babies have discovered the window in the bathroom and as you can tell in the one that looks like poor Mo is up chucking, the toilet paper has been removed......cause I can't afford for them to have fun anymore with a whole roll!! TP is too important and cost to much to waste and I don't get Sears or Montgomery Ward catalogues anymore. No thanks, don't want anyones old catalogues, I'll just try to keep the TP out of their reach for now.

I go to the Doctors on the 30th to talk about my surgery on my feet on the 7th of July. Please pray that all goes well and that not having someone there with me, for the surgery/procedure, is not a problem. I have people to help me when I get home and can get a ride there thru the services I use at other times. I will work all of that out hopefully when I go in on the 30th. For those who don't know I am having my toes on my right foot worked on to straighten them out and to take care of the bunion and straighten my big toes also.
Okay back to working on things now......

Not one of my better nights

Tonight is not one of my better night........can't sleep, just can't get the brain to turn off tonight and the meds aren't kicking in. Also having the leg spasms/cramps I get some days with this restless leg syndrome. I know some of it is standing in one place for so long today when the cats and the dog met......was afraid to sit down till knew all was well with them all. Took some Ibuprofen and we will see if that helps any.

I had had a TV given to me that was a large TV but some one had pulled the thing you hook the cable to in the back out. I was able to hook my DVD player to it but just decided it was going to cost too much to fix it, so gave it to a friend of ours named Bobby. Bobby is Skitzophrenic and dosen't do a whole lot but he does like to play games on his machine so this way he can have a bigger picture for it. He was really happy about the whole thing and I was just glad to get something that was really too big for me to handle out of here. Maybe one of these days I'll be able to get me a different one. For now I have 2 smaller TV's and honestly, even with these new boxes can't get much of anything in on these antennas.

I've had a rough day today anyway as I can't stop thinking how miserable my best friend is and how I can't be there to put my arms around him and hold him. I've read some writings he has been doing on his other blog and the ones that seem so dark just make me cry cause I can't kiss it and make it better.I want him to be happy or as happy as one can be in the time in the world. If I thought walking away completely and never seeing him again would do this I would do it in a heart beat! But I know how he was before we got together and I don't see him being better off if I was to leave. Time will tell how things will come out I guess.

New experience for the kitties

The kittens met a dog for the first time today.....Autumn the dog lives in our building and loves cats and actually the kittens didn't do to bad with Autumn either. There were some hunched backs at first but unless Autumn got excited and barked they began to move closer and sniff her out.

I figured it would be mighty Mo, my mighty brave little boy who would be first to make up but actually it was Smokey first and Mo Stayed back against me. What a switch, when Grumman Kitty was coming over Smokey would not have much to do with G-man unless he had to and Mo was all over him especially in the game of tag. Oh well will be interesting to see how these guys develope.

Here they are now all worn out!!


Mo does have a beginning and and end somewhere in here!! This is also their favorite places to rest during the day.

Working on buildings

Okay, went back to bed after the critters were worn down and feel some better now. Can at least think a bit clearer and am in the process of eating my lunch and that will help also.

Spent yesterday evening working on cutting down some shingles I had gotten at Hobby Lobby in the doll house section to fit my HO building I have been making. It will take a while to get them cut down cause they are a bit tougher than I expected them to be. Have a few that are warped so they want to break uneven, will keep them and may need to piece some around the edges. Each shingle will be cut in half length wise then width wise and should be able to get about 4 shingles out of each piece.......I hope that will work!!

Need to desperately to dust in the extra room as some point this week too. Trying to get everything ready in hopes that I can go ahead and have the surgery on my right foot on the 7th of July.

Pushing Buttons

You know those days when it just seems like your little ones are out to push every button just right? Well, animals can do that too, especially if you have raised them from the day after their eyes have opened and you are the only mommy they have ever known. Then all of a sudden they come up to you and look you in the eyes and purr saying they are sorry and just want to snuggle.

I have fussed at Mighty Mouth all night and so far this morning, chasing him out of things with the water bottle. Right now.....he is sitting on my lap all curled up and asleep. There are times when I think what am I doing, the last thing I need is an animal and then when they come up out of no where and rub and purr, I remember why I have animals in my life as all they really want is to love us unconditionally!! I need that right now, well I said unconditionally but actually they do have a couple three conditions.......food, water and litter box cleaned out at least every other day if not every day. Do you realise how much of a mess 2 kittens can leave in a litter box?

Kittens and Toilet paper

Need I say more?

Life stinks some days

Having a rough day yesterday and today. My best friend is hurting and there is nothing at all I can do about it. On days like this the human part of me cries out and asks God if He is really there. I'm so tired of hurting physically and emotionally. (By the way yes I know that God is real and is there and has a plan for all of this.)

Last year I had a problem and felt I needed to take an action that was right for my survival, later I dropped the action and thought it was all over. However, the state decided they needed to pursue it and even though we had made the arrangements that was needed and things were going great......it now has but up a major problem and my best friend can't have any contact with me which is tearing me apart. We were separate for our 4th anniversary and now I have missed fathers day and yesterday was his birthday.

Well, I'm back and on a funny note as I was typing there was a terrible crash in the kitchen, have been having trouble with kittens going through the window between dinning room area and kitchen and getting on the cabinets. Well, Smokey may not be doing that for awhile but then you know kittens are always curious. Wish I could have gotten a pic of Smokey with the watering can stuck on his head but felt it was more important to get him free so he didn't get hurt or nothing got broken. The can was about half full so you can imagine the mess on the floor and the cat!The pics at the top are after I used a towel on him as he was dripping and I didn't want him to get on the computer either.

On top of everything I have no idea how my best friend is physically......I get an idea how he is mentally by reading his blog and his posts on ASBO . I know he isn't real strong when under the stress he is under currently but there isn't a thing I can do to help out. For awhile I knew he wasn't blaming me for what happened but not so sure of that anymore and that hurts a lot. I did what I had to to survive and then I tried to undo it and did......we were getting along so well after he got his own place to live and then we could be together as we needed to be. Life was getting better and then the state stepped in and messed it all up for us!! I'm angry, I'm frustrated, I'm hurting and so is he and there isn't a damn thing I can do about any of it!!

My buddies and ME

Are these the same little ones who use fit under my chin to sleep? Now I can barely hold them at the same time.

Another Kidney infection?

Well another 10 days of the antibiotic Bactrim. Had to make a quick visit to the dr office and have me checked out. Somewhere along the way I have had the aches all over, a fever, headache and etc...... The test didn't definetly say I had another kidney infection but the symptoms were heading that diection, the dr did say there was an infection some where and my urine test said something was going on but didn't definetly say kidney or uti either.

Thank goodness my neighbor Elaine was up early on Friday and was able to get me there on time. The pain was on my right side this time but in the same area as last time. I also had a fever of 101 by the time I got to the dr.

So the babies and I spent all day Friday and most of the day Sat. Sleeping to keep the pain down and hopefully get better. So tonight they are like tornados going thru my house.....will have to clean house again tomorrow or Monday depending how I feel.

The days have been long

The days have been long without my best friend around. I miss the contact with him right now. I have to just take one day at a time and hope it all works out for the good.

I had to buy the kittens Iams this time and had enough of the Science Diet to mix in with what I got......I can get the Iams at the grocery store where I can't get out to get the other stuff every time I need it. I think the coats on the kittens is shinier and I think maybe they aren't scratching as much. I think they had dry skin from the air conditioner is what was happening. They don't care just so they get food right now!!hehehe

Several weeks back Mighty Mo had taken the little "cat toy" off of the plastic stick it was on and now he carries it all over the place, anytime ya hear a small bell ringing.....no another angel dosen't get it's wings......but usually Might Mo will show up with this toy to play. He has been bringing it up on the bed to me to play and that wouldn't be so bad except why does it have to be 3 in the AM he wants to play?? Oh well, at least the car racing track has stopped for now at that time of the morning....of course if I get tired of playing the game I just toss it thru my bedroom door for them to chase and there are enough other toys out there that usually they get busy doing something else and I can go back to sleep. I love my kitties!!

Guess things around the building here are changing some. Someone called the home office and filled them in on the problems around here and some changes have been made. One of the things that changed today was that our grounds person, who was also the managers husband, was apparently turned in as being an illegal from England, so he was fired today. Oh dear!! There goes my computer guy from the building also. He is a very nice person and will hate to see something happen to him.

Long walk

I took a long walk yesterday, Friday, and did real well all through the walk. Even stopped by to see my friend Mildred and check on her. However, coming down the hill from up town to my building I began to hurt all over, thought for awhile it was just going to be my new hip but it began to spread all over my body. When I got in the building I stopped down in the commons room and tried to watch tv and rest a bit. Two of my friends came in and we talked for awhile but I just kept getting worse. I finally got up and headed upstairs with the idea of taking a warm shower and then laying down but that idea was changed as I had to take some strong pain meds and lay down to be able to get on top of it all.

It wasn't the flu but was flu like symptoms so decided it must have been Fibromyalgia hitting me hard. I even chilled and ran a low grade fever, will need to watch this close in case there is still an infection some where, don't need it to settle in the new hip area!! It even has my carpal tunnel acting up, it hurt from my elbow clear into the palm of my hands and a few choice fingers. Both kittens seemed to know something was wrong and stayed by my side most of the evening.

Again today had a lot of the same things happening. Did go downstairs for awhile watched the end of the ST Louis game and then found the college baseball world series games at Omaha....when I left that LSU was ahead. Still feeling bad and the cats are about to tare me apart as they are in jumping stage and they are leaving marks all over me......of course that hurts more today cause I feel so bad anyway!! Grrrr

Fighting depression a lot lately doesn't help either!! That was the reason for the walk in the first place. Oh well, life shall go on and so shall I......or not and my favorite quote for that is......"heaven? Go ahead and threaten me with Heaven!"

Lightning Bug

Last night the kittens discovered a lightning bug in the room. I had so much fun watching them as they kept trying to find it after it would fly away. Lightning bugs have a smell to them so the kittens wouldn't bite it but they did try to catch it several times but as soon as they got their nose close they would sneeze!!

The 2 pics with Smokey looking down off the bed was when the poor bug was knocked to the floor and disappeared......Smokey found it once because of the light it put off but then it was gone. My favorite is of Might Mo looking down on top of the lamp as he had seen the bug up in the light several times during the evening.

This all happened after midnight so you know the babies were very wild for the next hour or so. They finally did settle around 2AM or so and we finally got to sleep. But they were back at the crazies around 6AM and I just nestled down in the blankets and let them do their race track routine all over the bed till one of them came and began to purr and tried to snuggle. Wasn't long till the other one was up to snuggle too ......then I slept till almost 10AM, then got up and got busy.

I love these guys and they have been a life saviour for me. There certainly is a lot going on with them around.

Happy Anniversary

Today is our 4th anniversary for marriage and our 2nd anniversary for moving here to Boonville.
I love you Scott!